Don't Wanna

I don’t want to write about this but it’s been on my mind and heart all day. Anything else will be more boring than this to read. So here goes….
 
I’ve been really disheartened all day. A slumped-heart kind of day because I’m so bummed by what I keep hearing people say …. about people. I had the recent pleasure of dating a man who after enjoying the sweetness & depth of my company and bed, chose quiet. That’s all good. I was happy to see him come. Happy to see him go. But what isn’t all good, what up sets my heart to no end, is that we think this is okay. That most every one I speak with says ‘’oh, yeah, that’s dating. People are just like that. You’ll get used to it.’’ Followed by harrowing story after harrowing story. Yuck.  
 
The part that disturbs me most is to hear people settling into the ‘’that’s just how it is’’ frame of mind. I can’t. I can’t settle there. If I do, it means that I am supporting de-evolution of humanity that I cannot. Whenever I go there or try to, my heart says adamantly - NO!   
 
We can get philosophical about it and consider all the possibilities. Is it the odd protection that texting and on-line communicating creates? Is it all the “networking” that is really disguised distancing? I’m not an idealist – okay, I am an idealist. But I’m a realist too. I get it that we all have deep & unknown realities that unless shared, can’t quite be understood by one another. Good! All the more reason to share, to connect, to open, to listen.
 
We’re better than this. I know it. We are deep, warm, compassionate loves who have a crazy capacity for understanding & integrity. We care about each other. We wonder about one another. We listen.
 
I know I’m already in the midst of a 21-day challenge but for the two people that may actually read this, I’d like to pose another challenge. How about you-and-me…we do this thing where we actively connect with each other if we want something. We let the other person know what’s happening within us. We let our hearts speak first. And then we deeply, faithfully, and patiently…listen. I’m in.