#WriteSomethingWrong

Back in mid July of this year, I had the first thought about #WriteSomethingWrong ~ I was free writing one morning, contemplating a time in my life several years ago. I was exploring why, while in this particular relationship, when my love would write me sweet or sexy texts, I’d often not respond or clam up. And I wrote that I was “worried about writing something wrong.” Seeing that on the page really gave me pause. I kind of pride myself of being free spirited and when I write something that surprises me or I want to learn more from, I’ll sometimes write it over and over and over again. So that’s what I did.
 
Write something wrong
Write something wrong
Write something wrong
Write something wrong
Write something wrong
 
And at that moment I wondered what I’d write if I “wrote something wrong.” I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’ve written plenty about shit that’s happened or shit I’ve done or I’ve apologized to people or rounded back to events or people I was hurt by. I’ve done this in one way or another all my life. I felt an impulse to launch it immediately and then got scared….last new year’s eve I launched an ‘’if there was no shame’’ thingy and that night I was inadvertently drugged and then dropped by the one I was with. I was oozing with shame, confusion, sickness, and sadness. I hated the way the new year rang in and was afraid of what that meant for the rest of the year.
 
So, I was a little skittish to start this wondering….what will I write? And what experiences will I draw to myself as a result of initiating this….?
 
We shall see….